Lady Gaga Confesses She Was Raped by Record Producer When She Was 19

Lady Gaga told radio host Howard Stern Tuesday that she was raped by a record producer 20 years her senior at the age of 19. The incident, she explained on Stern’s radio show, explained that the incident was the inspiration for her song “Swine,” according to the Washington Post.

After some coaxing by Stern, Gaga related:

The song is about rape. The song is about demoralization. The song is about rage and fury and passion and I had a lot of pain that I wanted to release and I said to myself, ‘I want to sing this song while I’m ripping hard on a drum kit and then I want to get on a mechanical bull, which is probably one of the most demoralizing things that you can put a female on in her underwear, and I want this chick to throw up on me in front of the world so that I can tell them ‘You know what, you can never ever degrade me as much as I could degrade myself and look how beautiful it is when I do.’

It happens every day. It happens every day and it’s really scary and it’s sad and you know, it didn’t affect me as much right after as it did about four or five years later. It was so hard. I was so traumatized by it that I just had to keep going and get out of there.

Gaga didn’t say too much more about the incident or the man in question, who would tell the public that he and Gaga were dating.

“I didn’t know that was a date,” she said. “You were 20 years older than me. I was a kid. How was that a date?”

Gaga performed the song at this year’s South by Southwest music festival, and released a lyric video for the track, both of which can be viewed below. They take on a whole new meaning when viewed with this knowledge in mind.